kya ye such m pyar h............???

Hello friends i am abhi and i am engg pass-out, this is my real story so please help me  because  I am totaly confuse,kuch month pahle meri orkut pe ek ladki se friendship hui thi aur maine use praposs kiya usne bhi mujhe ha kaha aur uske baad hmari ph per talk hone lgi,hm hmesa ek dusare se ph per talk karte the,hmare talk karne ki koi time limit nhi thi,mai use bahut pyar karta tha aur abhi bhi karta ho wo bhi mujhe ek lover ki tarah trit karti thi aur bina meri voice sune ek pal bhi nhi rah pati thi,mai use pyar jana bolta tha kyoki mai use apni jaan manta ho,but kuch time baad wo mujhse dur hone lgi aur jb maine karan pucha to usne kaha ki uski marrige fix hai,ye sun kar mujhe bahut shok lga aur maine khud ko spoile karne ki soch li per use pane ki kosis bhi karta tha,wo mujhse kai baar dur gyi per jab use ye feel hota ki wo mere bina nhi rah sakti to wo mere pas wapas aa jati,wo mujhse ye to bolti hai ki wo mujhe pyar karti hai Per phir wo mujhse ye kahti ki wo mujhe aur apni old life ko lekar confuse hai,jab mai usse ye puchta ho ki hmare bich me pahle kya tha wo bolti hai ki mai khud nhijanti,par wo mujhe hmesa ye bolti hai ki wo mujhse pyar karti hai per uske baad wo but…ka use karti hai,usne mujhe jo jo kaha per uske is but ko dur nhi kar paya,friends mai usse bahut pyar karta ho wo meri life aur mai uske bina ji sakta per kuch dino se mujhe aesa feel ho rha hai ki wo mujhe kuch chupa rhi hai aur abhi wo mujhse koi contact bhi nhi kar rhi,mai kabhi 2 sochta ho ki mai uski life se dur chala jaunga per jab wo mujhe koi reply deti hai to mai khud ko nhi rok pata aur jab mai usse dur hone ke liye kahta ho to wo bolti hai ki wo bhi mere bina nhi rah sakti,so please help me friends mujhe samjh me nhi aa rha ki mai apne is relation ko kya naam do kyoki wo ek taraf mujhe i lve u bolti hai per baad me bolti hai ki wo confuse hai aur mujhe bhi confuse karti hai per hum dono ek dusare ke bina nhi rah sakte hai…!!!!